How I Wish...

Recently my life is just like a life of pants. Oh dear... Hmmmm... 'sigh...

Life Of Pants

I Live With My Mates
Screwed Up In The Drawer
Squashed Flat At The Back
Passed Over. Ignored

Everyday In The Morning
We're All 'Sorted Out'
Snatched, Grabbed And Stared At
And Twisted About

Whoever Gets Lucky
Is Pulled On And Worn
Which Is Nice
Because Life On A Bottom
Is Warm!

But It Doesn't Last Long
Till You Hear Yourself Scream
As You're Locked In And Drowned
In The Washing Machine


I sm so bored at home. How I wish I can go oversea with my house together...
Hmmmm...

Wouldn't it would be great
If when you went on holiday
Your house could go on holiday, too?
Whole terraces could disappear together
For boozy weekends in Ibiza.
Semi-detacheds could rekindle romance
Side by side on moonlit beaches.
You'd find bungalows backpacking
And Chalets criss-crossing he Channel.
Detached houses going solo
Seeking dates or mates on single trips,
While apartment blocks could take package tours
Jetting to Jamaica in Jumbos

Just imagine houses hitting the holiday trail,
Forming orderly queues on major roads
Then crowding holiday beach.
Imagine houses surfing or sunbathing,
Jumping into swimming pools, keeping cool.
See them paragliding or rock climbing,
Scuba diving or horse riding.

So much better than brooding, silent and empty,
Rooms filled with gloom, windows like sad eyes,
Blinking back tears.
How much better it would be for houses
To have a holiday break like us!

Movie Maniac

Miss March, Monster Vs Alien, Uncensored (Documentary Transsexual Life Of Singaporean) Uninvited, Lome Matters, Marvey & Me and afew movie I forgot... It seem this week is a movie maniac week. I watch most of the movie with my dearest friend Hariz.

On Thursday, my squad got their annual leave. Good right? I know my Dad would say by his grandfather story by saying in those old day there no such thing as leave or what so ever. But it seem Hariz and his squad is getting bad to worst. Yes! Squad 12. It is so worst that a FI (Field Instructor) can't do anything. Until to the extend of the person in charge of this intake got to come down to Echo Coy and lecture them. It seem that my squad is getting worst and much more racist. What happen to my squad my dearest squad mate. What ever squad see you, good or bad but I sure miss you guy and you guy are the best no matter what...

Anyway Hariz book out and we off to Johor bought some movie. We have never eaten there for some time so we ate. I ate Lekor and Hariz ate Maggie Goreng. So we chat and Hariz is my so called spy (haha..) which update me what happen to the squad. Anyway I also did not talk to Hariz for some time too... Hmmm, I really wonder what happen to them? My squad mate....

After Johor trip he came to my house and watch movie. Yes, he complain and I know my house is untidy. Hahaha... We watch 4 movies in a row through out the whole night. Until 6am...
First time it broke the record. Usually I watch 2 is good enough. Anyway I told him wanna meet Farah tomorrow? We hanging out ya know... And now is Farah turn to update me as much as possible and is all in Hougang...

What Happen To The World?

When I watch Discovery Center, their slogan now is: The World is Just Awesome. It is true indeed. There are so many beauty of mother nature to colorful cultural out there in different part of the world. But isn't sad that there are ugly of human behaviour too. Or something that we do not want to see human behaviour that they have lost their love one. But there one song lyric that truly meaningful and really what happen in the world out there?

Where Is The Love - Black Eyed Peas

What's wrong with the world mama?
People living like ain't got no mamas (We tend to forgot what parent teach us. Living in the world where there no rules)

I think the whole worlds addicted to the drama
(Teen think is cool to follow on media)

Only attracted to the things that bring you trauma
(They tought media and reality is the same but it not.)

Overseas yeah we trying to stop terrorism
But we still got terrorists here livin
(Trying to solve other problem where we did not really solve our problem yet)

In the USA the big CIA the Bloodz the Crips and the KKK
But if you only have love for your own race
(They always never think that we are all human at the end of the day...)

Then you only leave space to discriminate
(Rich and poor, unfair judge and biased attitude)

And to discriminate only generates hate
(As a result hate on each other)

And if you hatin you're bound to get irate
Yeah madness is what you demonstrate
And that's exactly how anger works and operates
You gotta have love just to set it straight
(Why is there this saying, Love Thy Neighbour! Where it seem so difficult...)

Take control of your mind and meditate
(People tend to act than think where they never thing of the consequence's where it already too late...)

Let your soul gravitate to the love y'all

People killing people dying
Children hurtin you hear them crying
Can you practice what you preach
Would you turn the other cheek?
Father Father Father help us
Send some guidance from above
Cause people got me got me questioning
Where is the love? (where is the lovex3) (the love2x)

It just ain't the same all ways have changed
(So many access as the globe is changing)

New days are strange is the world the insane?
(Child sex slave to sexual abuse.)

If love and peace so strong
Why are there pieces of love that don't belong
(They always say but never do it...)

Nations dropping bombs
(Third world country)

Chemical gases filling lungs of little ones
(Air pollution is still rising where factory meet a demand in the poorest country where they work for another country...)

With ongoing suffering
(Poverty, sickness, hunger...)

As the youth die young
(Not youth but child that barely 5 y/o starve to death...)

So ask yourself is the loving really strong?
(If love is strong, there will be action but the world just don't co-operate...)

So I can ask myself really what is going wrong
(People like you and me just cant understand why some idiot still hurting another one for greediness...)

With this world that we living in
(We work for money or money work for us as same as we live to eat or eat to live as a survivor...)

People keep on giving in
Makin wrong decisions
Only visions of them livin and
Not respecting each other
(Even family members)

Deny thy brother
(Corruption)

The wars' going on but the reasons' undercover
The truth is kept secret
(Hiding the truth. But how long can they hide? Until the extend to war and killing???)

Swept under the rug
If you never know truth
Then you never know love
(Never think of other but always think of yourself...)

Where's the love y'all? (I don't know)
Where's the truth y'all? (I don't know)
Where's the love y'all?

People killing people dying
Children hurtin you hear them crying
Can practice what you preach
Would you turn the other cheek?
Father father father help us
Send some guidance from above
Cause people got me got me questioning
Where is the love? (where is the lovex3) (the lovex2)

I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
(Problem is still increasing)

As I'm getting older y'all people get colder
Most of us only care about money makin
(They dont't wanna solve problem because is not profitable...)

Selfishness got us followin the wrong direction
Wrong information always shown by the media
Negative images is the main criteria
Infecting their young minds faster than bacteria
(Technology is not making in good used...)

Kids wanna act like what the see in the cinema
Whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness and equality
Instead of spreading love, we're spreading anomosity
Lack of understanding, leading us away from unity
(Things are much simple but instead we make it much more complicating...)

That's the reason why sometimes I'm feeling under
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feeling down
It's no wonder why sometimes I'm feeling under
I gotta keep my faith alive, until love is found

People killing people dying
Children hurtin you hear them crying
Can you practice what you preach
Would you turn the other cheek?
Father Father Father help us
Send some guidance from above
Cause people got me got me questioning
Where is the love? (fade)


Here afew image...

A love one got to fight a war but ended up losting her love one...





All the way too the obvious seperation of rich and poor...

Life Goes On As Time Goes On...

Hariz miss call me and I realize that Idiot wanna ask me out for Johor but I did not pick his call as he call me today. Meanwhile rewind back to Friday...

I went to call Prema and told her that I was on the way to their house and bought her the movie, Extreme Movie. Is similar to Scary Movie where they make fun of film and actor too. As I talk to her, it seem she in in the environment in the car. So I told her you in the taxi is it? Her replied, 'Yeah!' Oh god she back from Hougang and if I would called her earlier I would be in the taxi cause she passing by my are in the highway which is CTE.

Anyway I took train and on the way to typical another heartlander that is Woodland. Where many mak mak stay and all the bunch of funny people. Is not safe to down night time cause a few gang might disturb you. Okay, as I reached there about 2200 and it seem Prema not in a good mood. Did not talk to her much when I overnight there but I played Uno with Kumar and Kevin. Later we played Monopoly with the door neighbour too...

I went off the next day to meet my mum to buy television. Say the newspaper where they show ad such as LG 42' only $699 at Takashimaya. Wow!!! I wanna buy... But so sad no money... Hmmm... I got to save money to bu a LCD HD TV... I want it... Later went to visit my mum and off to meet Hubert Tan at Kallang Dragonboat club. Hmmm, is been sometime I went there but anyway I realise he is workaholic. All work 24/7... Where the social life dude... But anyway I am glad I met him and we went to Somerset, Pasta Mania. I wanna find some china girl such a dirty old men. Anyway I do enjoy eating there. Than we off to Suntec City and Hubert wanna try some office wear clothe for his work. Hmmm, shop awhile and my sixth sense told me that bitch Heng Mun too be in Orchard. Called her and is true. She at Far East with her boyfriend, Din. We took a bus down and met her. Is been a long time that the 3 Idiot gang unite. We serious update each other alot and indeed is a well spend day. Anyway head back home feeling sleepy...

Aisha (Veronica) and Shikin plus the family,
I am sorry for lost of your love one. I know how you feel that you lost for your love one dearly. But look at the bright side your nenek is in the place where there no such thing as sadness. She is in the place where no such thing as shed tears and suffering. But she hope one thing that is you, my grandchild must be strong. Be strong my girls... Be strong...

But I hope you girls spend alot of time with Nenek in the past life. If you did than there should be no regret. Because every single time you spend with her is worth it. The memories you have is now priceless. Treasure it my dearest girls... Treasure it...

Give Me A Peek In The Future...

I don't know what is the plan in the future. I always hope that I can see the future. Just a peek will do or a hint or whatever so that I could see the future. What is gonna happen tomorrow, like my interview. It seem a very formal, strict and serious environment interview. Tips, they gave me in the first interview which I passed told me tried not to say Yes or No but give detail instead. But also this is my opportunity that a job is perfect for me. Working in some big electronic company in production line. It might help me alot in my field of studies to financial needs to travelling in the future to my education. Plus, my hobby such as upgrading electronic appliance. I have bought PS and a Home Theater System. Now all I want is a HD LCD Television and it will be a complete set. But I am nervous, just a little peak in the future please...

I feel in the mood to blog today. I don't know why but just got a mood to blog. It seem tomorrow I am going the second interview than hang out with Kevin friend with Shikin and Aisha. I don't know but maybe I will hang out. They gonna play LAN through out the entire night till the next day. Games such as Left 4 Dead or maybe counter-strike. I think so far I only played this two game but I don't know about the rest.

Shit!!! I know I can't keep money. My Dad gave me $50 now left $10. Oh God, I am trying to budget but I got to practice. If I success, by getting this job that pay me $1300 after CPF cut, how am I gonna have a habit of saving 1K per month? I die die got to save $1K... Also maybe I plan to work all the way to December or February. Seven or nine months? Hmmm...
I don't know but I can't be care much neither. Let the fate do the work...

But someone told me this! What ever money you receive, take with your right hand it would be good. Money will be much longer in your pocket rather by taking by your left hand. Also my true love or someone who will be in my life forever will know how or very good in keeping money for you in the pocket. My Grand Uncle Fiance told me this, as she expert in Horoscope and Palm Reading...

Here a picture to make you laugh which is found in Thailand:

Picture Of The Year In 2008
Elephant Trunk in Changmai - Thailand‏

Boring Weekday...

The Night of April 1st

Defense Attorney:
Will you please state your age?

Little Old Lady:
I am 71 years old.

Defense Attorney:
Will you tell us, in your own words, what happened the night of April 1st?

Little Old Lady:
There I was, sitting there in my swing on my front porch on a warm spring evening,
When a young man comes creeping up on the porch and sat down beside me..

Defense Attorney:
Did you know him?

Little Old Lady:
No, but he sure was friendly.

Defense Attorney:
What happened after he sat down?

Little Old Lady:
He started to rub my thigh.

Defense Attorney:
Did you stop him?

Little Old Lady:
No, I didn't stop him.

Defense Attorney:
Why not?

Little Old Lady:
It felt good. Nobody had done that since my Albert died some 30 years ago.

Defense Attorney:
What happened next?

Little Old Lady:
He began to rub my breasts.

Defense Attorney:
Did you stop him then?

Little Old Lady:
No, I did not stop him.

Defense Attorney:
Why not?

Little Old Lady:
His rubbing made me feel all alive and excited. I haven't felt that good in years!

Defense Attorney:
What happened next?

Little Old Lady:
Well, by then, I was feeling so 'spicy' that I just laid down and told him 'Take me, young man. Take me now!'

Defense Attorney:
Did he take you?

Little Old Lady:
Hell, no! He just yelled, 'April Fool!' and ran off .
And that's when I shot him ............ the little bastard

I am glad Prema send me this e-mail and other funny one that make my day good and fresh. At least I laugh and I guess laughing is a best medicine after all. Anyway, I am so bored. Bored to death and my parent force me to work now. Yes, now, immediately. But I wanna rest awhile and neither I dint really wanna rest alot because it is bored like hell. At least the Facebook do kill lot of my free time and someone I love, entertain me in time so as my other good friends of mine. But I just don't know what to do with my life but one thing sure is I wanna get myself in Republic Poly to get my Aerospace Diploma. I am not so lucky cause thinking of school is think of money that I got to pay. So that what really hold me back. Oh dear...

Anyway, my grand uncle might bring me to Bali, Indonesia and my Mum would bring me to Italy, December and Feb to meet someone I really wanna meet. But I can have all this in one condition. Go get a job, Jason... Yes, I die die got to find a full time job with a good pay. Also I wanna find something either IT or Aerospace so that when I got into the course it make my life easy based on my job experience. Anyway I am glad today is my Dad pay. Dad pay means me too got money. Hahaha... Finally got some cash... Now what job should I take? All I got to do is flip the newspaper and start back my life...

Weekend Outing

On Friday I was so moody that I did not talk to anyone. I was sleeping for almost
the whole day. I did not even took my lunch neither dinner too. That time I was so negative.
Felt so empty and left out like begin dead. Let the world run while me is like
begin another world that stood still. As if there is no time. Or time stood still forever.
I pray god that must I really go through this? It seem that every 4 month,the moody thing will happen. Is like somehow someway I am paying for the happiness and fun that I have for the past month. Again, it happen today. I really hate it.

But Saturday and Sunday it was a great spend time on weekend. Saturday, went for Kevin (Ravin Small Brother) 10th Birthday. It was fun to see Kumar and Ravin which I think I did not see them for 2 to 3 weeks already. Also play with Uncle Robert (Kevin Dad) some carom. Than went to met Aisha and the rest. Went to one of the newest shopping mall that is Sambawang Shopping Center. Is a nice place to chat cause at the roof there is a water playground. It was a great day.

Confusion...

Thanks ah Aisha. You sure know how to brainwash me. That bitch ask me to go over at her place tomorrow and entertain her. She lived somewhere in Woodland. Also tomorrow I think there no soccer cause we do not have soccer ball. Great!!! Anyway, is also been sometime I met them too. My Dad kept on nagging at me why I got a long MC. I say, how am I suppose to know? haha... He kept on asking me to go and find job. But now is not the right time... Recently I have been thinking alot too. My life change because there are someone who bought me to a fairyland. A land where my happiness would be there forever. But it is just too far... Oh dear, what life am I having. But it is sad that I got to woke up and see where I am Jason? Face the reality... But why I got to leave that Fairyland and face my reality...

*Tears rolling down the cheek*

I am just too confuse. It seem my life is like dull. I don't wanna go out neither meet up my friend. I used to be positive and used to advice people. Always cheer for them and my friend. But when I need a shoulder to lend on, who will be there? It seem I am seeing everything negative. As if there is no life. Is that normal or dangerous? I am finding a way to cheer myself. Trying to be positive and outgoing. But it seem another person/ character who always think negative and anti-social is taking over me. Slowly day by day. I don't think is split personality but is just that I think too much. Don't think much and just let the nature flow. I know that advice and I can advice myself but again I am stubborn and I don't follow. Again, now, I think negative...
Please oh lord, again I beg you, give me your strength of yours to go through hardship day by day...

Border Day...

A day that come, and a day have gone by. Past, Present and Future. Today, to me is called border day. A present that make the difference between past and future. Something that I lost in the past but gain in the future. Many people think I am lucky but they just never think behind the scene. I am nervous now because I dont know what the future have install for me. But oh God please, please I begging you. That just give me abit of your strength to survive each day that pass by...

Running At The North...

Last night, Ravin Aunt come and fetch me from Houngang. We off to Woodland. Prema complain about her tanent that they are very untidy and she is a funny women la. Very rare to see this type of Aunt. Also at the same time go there collect my old phone back. They lost my head phone. Such an idiot. That head piece is original and now I got to replace a new one. Anyway it been awhile I chat with them. Later Hariz come and fetch me off to Johor from Ravin house itself. So went to Johor bought a movie and the most recent movie I saw was Push. Not bad, very nice show. 4/5...

Craving For Nasi Lemak...

I slept at 4am and woke up at 1pm. The timming have flop again and I miss those day where I woke up hear the coffeshop noise as the bird chipping and my window capture a little bit of sunlight as the sun is still rising. Where I would woke up, feeling fresh and have my breakfast from a famous Nasi Lemak stall. Packet it, bring home, ate it, drink coffee and watch Channel News Asia as I observe and listen what happening around the globe. But nope, not today. Today is not my day. But all sudden I have a craving for Nasi Lemak. Not lunch but dinner too. Hahaha... The same dish. Hot Dog, Egg and fish. $2.50 only. It seem to me today is Nasi Lemak (Coconut Rice) Day...

Running...

Oh dear, today run here and there. But recently I just research about swine flu. I dont know why, now a day it seem I know about medical more than other. It seem that I have a hidden talent in Medical field. But just general knowledge la. There are 3 stage of virus. Animal to animal. Animal to Human and Human to Human. It seem swine virus is the last stage. Belong to the family of H1N1 also known as the flu family. This virus in not from pig. That what many of us think of. But is not. Also the reason they called this virus as swine maybe because the strain is similar to the virus that pig once have. Remember there are many strain of virus. More than 1000 type of it.

So I went back to my camp. Meet my OC squad and the new OC Squad. I am lucky I book out again. Got my gate pass... yeah... Hahaha, but it seem in the near future I will be in and out of HTA. Dont know what HTA? Go and find out dont be a lazy uncle or aunty. But I have lot of thing in the near future. It seem I can plan my NS and in the working world. I am finding job like event or something like part time. Oh today I run here and there alot. Yesterday, Woodland to Bukit Batok to Clementi to Holland Village. Today, Holland Village to Bukit Batok To Chua Chu Kang than Back To Holland Village. Rest, sleep back to Orchard than wanted to go Woodland but I tired like hell sia... So went home and sleep. Hahaha... I hate running here and there...

First Time Fly Kite, Frist Time Meet Old Friends...

I went to East Coast Park yesterday. Woke up 0715. Wanted to drank coffee but I was late. Packing my bag as I race against time where I got to be down and all ready by 0750. Anyway after all my packing off I went but my sixth sense told me that, 'Jason you forgot something' but I ignore. Anyway is 0743 and I ran to the car park and Sms my aunt where you are now and she replied, Oh Jason I be there by 8am. Oh she late and I was rushing for nothing. Anyway I went to buy Marigold Strawberry Milk and enjoy drinking as I waited for her. Not long she came that is 0810. Joan was in. I assume they went to fetch her that why there is a delay. Anyway off we went to East Coast.

We reach there around 0845. The weather is nice and I kept on forgetting that today is public holiday that is Labour Day. Anyway it was a nice cooling weather as I lay down and read Reader Digest and Strait Time. It seem that most of big electronic company such as Court, Audio House and Harvey Norman clearing stock and giving amazing low price but my allowance have not come yet. Aunt Christine came around 1000. So they rent bicycle to picnic. Guess what, my aunt bought for me a kite and just nice I saw Sharel roller blading and we chat awhile. Anyway I went to fly kite and guess what, yesterday, that is Saturday, first of May 2009 at 1023 that is my first time fly kite in my entire life. I taught I got problem to make the kite fly but I did not know it was easy and kind of fun.

After East Coast, we left that place around 0535 and Uncle Luke drop me off at Paya Lebah MRT Station. Went in toilet and change to my formal dressing. I realise that I forget to bring my belt. It seem my sixth sense was right and rarely wrong. I cant even think when and what my sixth sense gave the wrong info. Anyway, I cant wear my jeans because it is too loose. So I got to wear a 3/4 pants and a green tourism kind of shirt like as if I am not from Singapore. Off to Dhoby Ghaut and met Kevin friends and my childhood friend who always named herself Veronica.

Reached there, called them and I realise I got off at the wrong entrance of the MRT station. Go one big round and met them. We walk to Cathay and watch movie, Horsemen. As we going in the entrance, my brother met her so called ex. He is paisei cause just broke off. I say, Hey Kevin your gf so sweet... Hahaha... But she a nice girl and why does my brother break up. Anyway Kevin friend wanna go supermarket and buy all the tibits. Typical Singaporean kiasuness. I told them why you don't wanna buy popcorn and they said it is too ex. I said didt you read the newspaper they giving away free popcorn and drink. But they don't believe until I bring them to the snack bar. Anyway I met Kumaran and Johnson. Oh gosh. I was so excited when I saw their face. It seem we did not meet for such long time. Lost contact. Thank you lord...

After movie went to meet Hubert at Cineleisure. He admire the girl at Pasta Mania. I did not know Mr Hubert Tan is such a stalker and kept on asking her number for him. I said today is not the right day la... Anyway we went to eat all that. It was fun but today indeed it was a nice day to spend out with your family and friends...