My Weekend

This is what I do over the weekend:

Yes! If you guess right it is dragonboat. But to row out and kiasu enough just to take a peek in F1 Race!

In the past, this is what I do over the lest few weekend:

Guest list in Zirca!

I am just so tired and finally my last day working have finally come. It is kind of slack and all day at home watching horror local documentary. Wujud 7 and Wujud 8. It means Exists in Bahasa Melayu and it was kind of interesting show.

Anyway I have a new writer for my blog showing her personal life experience. Well I guess in our generation we wanna share with our friend to keep each other up to date. Look at Who Am I?

My mum recently begin to do the basic photoshop in modifying and croping or event his function called Mask. She do it all the basic stuff and it sometime can be kind of humour and entertain. It is call PhotoFacer. A simple software that could tease your friend and family. Here is the preview:

Isn't wonderful that even the elderly are picking it fast and adapt in our current generation technology.

But Why?

I wanna share with you guy something:

1) You lie to your parents for your Lover, but why not to your lover for your parents?

2) To marry your lover you leave your Parents, but why don't you leave your lover for your parents?

3) You ask your lover wether he/she has taken lunch on time, but have you ever asked the same question to your parents?

4) You leave all your bad habits for one promise to your lover, but why not after the repeated advice of Mum/Dad?

Any comments or explanation?

Simplicity Explanation Of Marketing

Here is a simplicity of way of explaining marketing:

1. You see gorgeous girl in party, you go to her and say I am rich, marry me.
-"That's Direct Marketing"

2.You attend party and your friend goes to a girl and pointing at you tells her. He is rich, marry him.
-"That's Advertising"

3. Girl walks to you and say you are rich, can you marry me?
-"That's Brand Recognition"

4. You say I'm very rich, marry me and she slaps you.
-"That's Customer Feedback"

5. You say I'm very rich marry me and she introduces you to her husband.
-"That's Demand & Supply Gap.

6. Before you say I'm rich, marry me, and your wife arrives.
-That's Restriction from entering new market.

Crimson Tears

This was my very first poem that I wrote when I was 15. My ex- teacher saw my scars and asked me a lot of questions. I was send to counseling for 2 years. It sucks, Im not gonna lie. I was so pissed with her. But when I looked back, I kinda thankful for her because if not for her, I don't know if Im still alive now. I don't like thinking about my past because it hurts. My scars are permanent and its visible. Its a constant reminded of my life, until the day I die. Yes, I do take a pic of me cutting. Im in no way an attention seeker. If I could help someone who is a suicidal, I would go all out to help them, coz I know how hard it is. 

(P/S: All of this are about 7 years ago. Ive been clean for about 3 years plus, so no, Im not cutting now.)

Once again I take my blade,

And commit my bloody sin,

Completing crimson lines,

Against my flawless skin.

Tears seep from my eyes,

And fall down into my soul,

But I continue causing pain,

Until I eventually feel whole.

I lay on the floor bleeding,

Cradling my crimson arm,

Even though Ive done it before,

Im stunned at my act of harm.

Pain rocks through my body,

Crimson Tears ..

As I wash away the blood,

I feel no better then I did before,

Im still all cold and grey.

I look deep into the mirror,

And stares right through my eyes,

I can see beyond myself,

Pass my make-up disguise.

I can see the hurt and the pain,

And my frightening tears,

I can see my blood stained arm,

My own crimson tears.

I can see my pale reflection,

And the blackened eyes,

They all think Im fine right now,

But they cant see behind the lines.

And so I lay myself to sleep,

And wish the pain away,

I close my eyes and falls asleep,

While dreaming of a better days.

But that day never arrives,

Im always alone and filled with hate,

This is my destiny right here,

My life, My soul, My fate.

Written By: Ronnie Shay

The Mind Of Slashing

Thanks Veron for letting me post this. This post is specially dedicate to my childhood friend, Veron. It was interesting and I wanna post so that it can open up a whole new perspective view of level.



// scars dont fade. each time i look and touch my scars, i see how much i've changed. i looked back at my past, the memories behind my scars, and i've realized i battled through a lot of shits. sure, i fucked things up. i always do it, but in the end i always pull through and because of it, i'm proud of my scars. my mum would always want to find a cream that can clear the scars but i didn't allow 

her to. i mean i dont give a fuck about it. i couldn't care less whoever sees it. people always judge me and they will always do.

you never know how it feels like unless you go through them yourself, though take my advice. DON'T DO IT. once you've gotten your first cut, you're hook. it's been 3 years now since i've did it, but i've been cutting myself since i was 13. it's not easy. it's never easy. but i did it. im not gonna lie and say you dont crave for it, you have no idea how much resistance and control to not cut myself. some time when i fucked things up, i just have the urge to cut. but i told myself over and over again dont do it, dont do it. for mummy sake, dont fucking do it. i remember her face clearly when she saw it and that image will forever be in my mind. she broke down immediately. i never told her why i did it. i couldn't. now, sometimes for no reason, she would just grab my arm and touch my scars. she didn't say anything. there's no reason to.

this month is the month of world suicide prevention. i dont know why i feel like telling my story, but i did. suicides are never easy. never tell someone who is depressed to go and die because that's the last thing that will trigger them. a lot of people are insecure, you trigger them a bit, they go downhills fast. some people deal with things differently and each, to its own. don't judge their pain. im not a counselor or anything. im someone who don't judge you for who you are nor your pain. if you feel like talking to me, then talk to me. if you feel like im doing this for attention, go ahead and post a comment. though i assure you, you wont be getting a reply from me because i refuse to let someone who is ignorant and close-minded to get to me. if i could help anyone of you who is suicidal, i would. remember, you're not alone. it will get better. with that, i hope you guys have a great day ahead. :)

- Veronica Aisyah Butsara Ridhuan.

(p/s: im soo fucking scared to click the post button.)

What you saw just now is my childhood friend. It kind of inspire me to blog this. I always wonder what in the mind of the person who slash or even a suicide mind thinking. After reading this, it was kind of inspire me. More understanding and I believe is never ever leave yourself with a thought alone. Because the wonder of imagination can sometime self destruct you. 

Becareful what you say as dont underestimate the power of word. That why I never get angry of people but friendly and nice. I never revenge because they have enough burden even my enemy. 

But some people can be just annoying and irritating. Just not worth to entertain people who got BAPOK MEAN MOUTH. Is not worth of your time nor entertain them.Anyway this month is the month of World Suicide Prevention. If you realize the person is down or what, date him/ her out. Console him/ her or possible always remind them that I or their friend is always there for them... And don't worry she is fine and I always there for her.

What Your Goal?

Wow! The time flew by and not is 3/4 on the to the month of October. Yes, is my birthday and befroe the pre-event, I and Spidy gonna shop and get some BBQ stuff in Johor. But I am not here to brag or report of my birthday event but rather my recent activity and my new goal.

My New Leisure Lifestyle:
Again I am back in Dragonboat. That is my fourth team to join in my entire life. Is been long since I head out in the sea.It was kind of fun and it motivate me because of two thing. First, my friend are there and it motivate me more if Nanda and Wilsen recent join. Sometime we joke and share funny experience. Also lot of eye candies. But sometime I start to daydream and my mind somewhere else whereas my hand paddle like an auto pilot. But another thing is part of nye healthy lifestyle. Is all thanks to Merf for introducing this team.

My New Healthy Lifestyle:
I start to workout. Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday. Each session about 40min of weightlifting. I have done it before but up to 1.5 Months. I know if I able to hit 3 or 4 month just the same workout, result could be seen. Train arm and chest will reduce shape contrast of the tummy to get good body. Chest increase as tummy stay seem that you been in shape, if assuming my theory is right. I still considering should I buy the Mass Protien Gain Shake product or not. By buying that, cost money and I have to be serious in my workout. As you know me, I hate commitment. No wonder I am not looking in the relationship.

The Retire Phase Lifestyle:
Soon I no longer working with Jess and I am sure I gonna miss all the wonderful people in Coleman College. It is my first time working in the standard office working environment and I learn lot of wonderful thing. Especially the Copier Machine which I did not know it can sort it out as result I learn my lesson as a half hour waste of my time manual sort the paper.

Conclusion
Anyway my birthday coming soon and I wanna bought lot of thing. As I no longer suing iPhone, as it is malfunction and ridiculous to pay a price that I can get a new phone, therefore I gonna save and buy iPhone 5  or maybe second hand iPhone 4s. Which does not make any difference. I got my goal which I mention and I wanna achieve it. So that the community would see me as eye candies. Plus the self esteem and confident would increase. Who know I might be a model in the future. :P

But right now I wanna focus  my job, my workout, my schedule in job attachment and finally, keep in touch and planning to all my old friend. There is 30 participant so far for my birthday BBQ. Any suggestion or idea of activity? Just leave the comment below.

    

This are the particapant who NEVER BEEN to DHOBY GHAUT MRT STATION.
They are CIRCLE LINE VIRGIN therefore we have a candie shot before we lose it.

Wonderful friends, Great Memories, Lot of Laughter

That's Not My Job

This's a story about four people:Everybody, Somebody, Anybody and Nobody.

There was an important job to be done and Everybody was sure that Somebody would do it. 

Anybody could have done it but Nobody did it. Somebody got angry about that, because it was Everybody's job.

Everybody thought Anybody could do it but Nobody realised that Everybody wouldn't do it.

It ended up that Everybody blamed Somebody when Nobody did what Anybody have done.

The Weekend

Sometime I think I am phobia of love/ relationship. I am not lonely and not really a need of someone beside me. But I just find it ridiculous to find one and commit to it. I dont know or just simply give up hope or confuse and not really sure what I need as right now I just blog it based on my mood, need and wants. I think I am Asexual! Or Am I?

I went for Dragonboat. Yes it might sound surprising but it was fun. I am glad Nanda went with me and all my current friend who join Dragonbaot not more than 3 month ago. It was long that I sail out in the ocean.

Went to makan at Beach Road for some Ikan Bilis Fried Rice and than we off to Yishun as I slept all the way to 7pm at Nanda house. Later went to meet Har for a short Introbar drink and went for tea session.

Surprising went to Zirca as Wilsen put I and Har in the guest list. Later we went to see performance but left the place half way and head home.

Yes it was a long long day from 0830 till 0100. Had a good sleep where as weekend now became weekday and that cause Monday blue.

Event Tip Point Of View

It is always not easy to plan and than execute the event which ever you wanna plan in your mind putting it into reality is just not what it seem to be. But never the less just simply practice and practice and from there you would learn each flaw to make it perfect. They have this saying that 'practice make perfect'. 

Recently I envy Merf do all the labor work such as fetching people in and out of Sentosa plus a picnic shopping. But I am sure he earn something out of benefit taking charge of that event.

The Sentosa went well just need to put in activity where everyone involve but I can assume is just a slacking and relaxing day where everyone gather and just have a picnic.






Here are the 10 Commandment of my experience in event planning:

1)What are the objective of this event? (Is it to slack, sporting, teambuilding)

2)What do you want the participant to benefit at the end of the day? (Suntanning, knowing the member better, or just leisure)

3) Be realistic (The cost, can they bear the cost, is it their interest)

4)The timing trend (Are the majority morning, afternoon or evening people)

5)Follow the majority (Dont just because of one person everything change. It will make yourself trouble and the planning efficient will drop)

6)Communication Factor (Let take the fact that calling and SMS is better than through cyber medium that is FB. Please dont rely on how many people participate the event in FB)

7)The show must go on (Dont demoralize that not many people going. JUST continue the planning)

8)Logistic Execution (That is the most challenge part of all planning. Also always ask and spread the news that it needed to pay for the logistic by all so mean)

9)The meeting point (If you miss the meeting time, make an effort to find the place. Because a host needed to be the event at all time depending the event. Also call another aquintance/ or your buddy happen to be that event.)  

10)The interest and passion (Make sure don't plan an event for the sake of doing so. But plan the event that you wanna share or volunteer. There on the event would be efficient and excite you.)

But many do enjoy the Sentosa and gather the survey of some of you guy, it went alright. It is not only and responsibility of the host but the community, as the more people volunteer to help out the small detail, the efficient it will be of your planning.

Example of my Birthday, that would be a challenge for me to organize the event but sometime my point of view as a host, it is better that certian event to ask someone to co-host (assistance). Example I have a week of chalet of my birthday event. Therefore each social group would be one or two co-host. So a clubbing network, Poly network, College network etc, each group would have a representive to co-host during my chalet. Remember hosting and creating is not everything the host got to do but also the community input during the participation.  

In conclusion, yes I might be sound a little scary as what organize got to go through all the troublesome task and taking many considertaion factor but trust me it is fun and worthy. Also it increase your leadership skill so that in certain scenario in your life, you would know how to react. And dont worry about making a mistake. Because there always someone will give you tips.

Birthday Party

The night was insane.
Finally I am glad Har, from Batam, Indonesia have came to Singapore to club.
The drinking is non-stop.

The liquor slowly attack us.

As we are doing insane stuff such as candies shot & taking over the dance floor.
It was nice feeling to have the mood to club,
Especially your good friend.
Where the teasing lead to laughter that convert to memories.

But the price got to pay, Hangover...

It is my sister birthday therefore went over to my mum house at Holland V. When I arrive, Bryan & Roberta finish all the chicken wing. It was fun though but Kumar & Christian are one of the few friend mix around with my family. There so many fun and laughter as I love to tease Roberta & Bryan.

But love the cake as I like how my step Dad bake it.

Anyway wish my Sister a beloved Happy Birthday.

I think I can assume she is 20.

As my mum from work came back to celebrate and again off to work. But she posted this picture in my facebook. It was kind of touching and my mum which showing expression in love based on image and text via  cyber.

Back To Cage

The day have finally come and I went out of my house as early as possible as there was so much thing to settle. I went to get my ATM, my student card, photo taking and lastly my mum birthday gift. Later I went to meet Har, and we had a dinner at a nice but reasonable price in the French Restaurant at Bugis. I am not a liver eater but the goose liver just simply surprise me, as a starter meal. Later went to Sim Lim Square and get my cable for my camera. Indeed the price is right as I cant find the fake cable therefore out of option went to buy the original Samsung USB Cable for camera, a 8GB memory card and a adapter. Total cost up to $80. I hate it to buy something that is so ex such like a cable.

The exam is over and my classmate from Diploma of Aerospace Engineer will waiting excitedly. They at Kallang Cage by 3pm where the actual fact it started at 4pm. So went to play and I tried a new shot angle...

 


Well we played 3 hour, and that should make them tired. I will try to organize another cage match plus a chalet. Later I have work and now I felt kind of Monday Blue. If I am free I will blog about Taboo...