Not Again!!!

Oh my goodness!!!

The problem is back. My sleeping time is flop and guess what time now I am writing this post? 5.35am. Can you believe it???

Oh gosh... I just watch a late night DVD movie, Voice Out, it was a great entertainment family movie. My friends out there you should watch... Anyway I waiting for the Hubert Sentosa outing and pray me that I can survive another 24 hours without sleep. I better buy afew redbull... Hmmm, I dont know which is stronger? 80cents coffee from coffee shop or red bull...

Anyway I just cant wait for tomorrow. Oh wait today, now morning where I can hear the first bus already...

Christmas Is Over, What Next?

I am glad I am enjoying for the past few days during the Christmas event. Eating that is something which I consider rare with your love one and who do the cooking too. My Grandmother cooked mutton stew which is simple but the taste is unique. The rice is still delicious and have not change since in my childhood. Oh, I got to enjoy now because I know my granny who really love me alot wont be there soon. I try to spend as much time as possible before she leave this world. So as my mum and my dad. I have learn and indeed I am glad who I am now. It seem someone up there show me what is life is and give me enough wisdom on how does our life work. Sometime thing are simple and yet we humans just make it much more complicated.

2008 is gonna be gone. As I look back this year, I realise each year is getting tough. Not academic but I would say something personal. But I know, someone up there is always sending a Angel and be beside me at all time. I would say this year is one of a hell. But I know there are many friends who comfort me. I got lot of good and indeed great friends. I should not tell but they should know who you are. I am gald God have plan to meet this friend of mine. Sometime I wonder are my friend, are the Angel? They also play a big role of my life... But I know each year come and goes it will just get tougher and tougher... Good bye my dearest 2008 and Hello 2009...

Life Is Useless...

Life Is Useless (Ecclesiastes 5:10-20)
Form the Good News - Bible With Deuterocanonicals...

If you love money, you will never be satisfied; if you long to be rich, you will never get all you want. It is useless. The richer you are, the more mouth you have to feed. All you gain is the knowledge that you are rich. Workers may or may not have enough to eat, but at least they can get a good night's sleep. The rich, however, have so much that they stay awake worrying.

Here is a terrible thing that I have seen in this world:
people save up their money for a time when they may need it, and then lose it all in some bad deal and end up with nothing left to pass on to their children. We leave this world just as we entered it - with nothing. In spite of all our work there is nothing we can take with us. It isn't right! We go just as we came. We labor, trying to catch the wind, and what do we get? We get to live our lives in darkness and grief, worried, angry, and sick.

Here is what I found out:
the best thing you can do is eat and drink and enjoy what we have worked for during the short life that God has given us; this is our fate.

If God give us wealth abd property and lets us enjoy them, we should be greatful abd enjoy what we have worked for. It is a gift from God. Sunce God has allowed us to be happy, we will not worry too much about how short life is.

The Book Of Wisdom

Upgrade - Mr Wisdom From The Book Of Wisdom...

There will be new label that is called Mr Wisdom.
Just something to learn about from a particular Phrase or Sentence.
It can be from the Book Of Wisdom (Holy Book such as Bible, Quran or other stuff of what people say or do)
Also not long the first post will be coming soon...

Once A Year...

I am glad this year I have a Christmas mood. Not only that, there are more house to visit this year. Also is good and lucky to have Christmas because without it, I think my family wont bother to meet up and have a gathering. First thing first, visit my mum tomorrow at her house that is at Holland V.

To tell you the truth, I have not eaten her homecooked food for a year. So teen and my dear friend out there, be glad that your mum cooked for you. Unlike me, where I get to eat her food only once a year. What make it special that most mother cooked, is with love, patient and caring. That what make the food best and there is this saying which I am sure you guy familar is, "Home cook is always the best..."

I have recieve an e-mail from the Eurasian Association today and they might wanna norminate me for a Internation Youth Program. But damm!!! The NS have called me... Oh I am so sad... Huhuhu... But dont worry after 2 years of shit NS, I will join lot of Internation Youth Program and I am gonna plan 3 Activity...

Backpacking to Singapore, Malaysia and Thailand

Italy trip... Oh lala...

And a trip to Batam... Not to play girl, idiot. But to have some fun sport event...

Mean time I got so much work to do and lot of camp job in January...

I just love and miss my mum food...

Wish you guy a Christmas and a Happy Beloved Sweet New Year...

Isn't my answer is so obvious?

Only two people from this earth, understand my blog for this post.
The rest will see this post at a riddle...

My life is a curse. I cant love anyone and I know no one should love me.
Is all because of the love? or is it is part of God plan?
I must not love anyone. And they all should not love me too.
Is for their own good and my own good too.
Some people might see this as a curse or misfortune but for me,
I see it as a challenge. A challenge that make me stronger.
Anyone who goes through this, I can ensure you, they would commit sucide or depress...
But for my own good and their own good,
You must not love me so as I shall not love you.

Came to this world as alone...
So as I must leave this world, alone too...
The answer is so obvious toward god plan that my love is not in this earth,
It is after life...

Yes, it is painful and the disease of loneliness is strong but God beside me,
As a result I can survive strong...
THose who weak, will die...
Those who are stupid, will not survive in this world too...
Those who are smart but no wisdom, they will suffer...

Isn't my answer is so obvious? To the question of my love life...

Short But Sweet...

Back form Johor and I just wanna go home and sleep. Never been there for some time already. Lot of nice movie I wanna bought but I realise that I did not bring much money. Anyway, today is Pames Birthday... Happy Birthday my dearest beloved friend. But sad, the Malaysian cancel their trip to Singapore due to lack of finace... Anyway dont be sad you guy can come again... Singapore wont run away also I will always be there to welcome my dearest good friends...

Start A New Day...

Morning, I woke up about 9am. Say my prayer and I realise I am getting religious for the past few days. Hmmm, I am not sure why would I wanna say my prayer, where there is lot to pray and thanksgiving about. Anyway the prayer was great way for me to start a day. A brand new day. Anyway I went to buy coffee and start to plan for the Malaysian where to go around Singapore. Should we go Singapore Science Center? Hmmm, I heard there lot of interesting stuff there... The last time I went to the Science Center is back in the 90s. Now, I am sure lot of things have change. Lot of things...

Going down to the coffee shop to buy my coffee, also another source to start a new day and my old teacher from AMK ITE called and ask me wanna join her a tea party in the afternoon. I said, why not! It been long I have not met her. Also a classmate of mine, visit ITE AMK, said the Thai stall which is just new sell a good thai food. Canteen price, which is cheap and food is good... That is very rare in Singapore...

So maybe I would go to AMK ITE (which is just a throw stone away...) and try Thai Food. Is my country town food ya know. I have never ate thai food for more than 2 months cause my mum is not in Singapore. She is in Italy enjoying life and high life shopping such as Gucci and Louis Vultton... Aiya, why cant she give me the money... Anyway Heng Mun too called me wanna meet up later... She also another crazy girl... Come all the way AMK just to cut hair... I miss Heng Mun and Hubert... Is time for you guy to meet up soon... Hahaha... maybe on the 10 of december I will meet them lot of time, I guess cause of the Malaysian...

My Second Camp As A Camp Instructor...

The SMAC (Singapore - Malaysia Adventure Camp) was awsome. I believe is a good combination of the Singapore and Malaysia youth. Their age group was 14 to 16 years old. But I was nearly cried when they left that show how much I am bonded to them. Some even wrote that I am a best camp instructor they have ever seen... Felt so touch. I guess I entertain them and teach them something.

The next day was a race and it was so tired. But I have met many people but I miss them. Team 11 where all the dragonboater, they came in first but I believe they did not won because they are not the highest point. But keep it up guy, at least you came first. Red Alert team started to call me Chicken. They are fun people. Just fun people... HAhaha...

Oh I want more camp but the Malaysian friends are coming on the 10 of december...

Life may seem short but what ever is it, I am glad what I am doing now... I believe I would die in peace if anything would happen...