Marsiling Market & Netball

We have went for an interview at Raffles City, to applied a temporary job post that is Sales Assistance. Yes, indeed I busted Nanda and Farah of one of the job interview that is recommended by Ezekiel. Anyway, the next day, my sister Doreen, Fafa and I went for a job interview and it was a fast interview indeed. It seem they really need of the manpower and we got the job immediately. Indeed I am happy and appreciate it plus I might thinking of extend it all the way to mid- October.

So the next day we went for a job briefing and working the next day. I lazy to specify the date but just an update what happen.

Nanda recommended to buy black pant and black shoe at Marsiling Market which is near to Woodland Checkpoint. So bout the pant and tailor to alter the pants. Here is the picture:

After all the budget shopping we off to see Farah play Netball that is at Sengkang Community Center. It is so difficult to control Farah camera as the shutter button immediately capture the picture without giving me the chance to focus it.

 

I just joined instagram so here is my user id:

Jasontronic

It was fun and recently was addicted to this social media where sharing photo but in retro mode.

Reflection Moments

I’m sure that I will always be

A lonely number like root three

The three is all that’s good and right, 

Why must my three keep out of sight

Beneath the vicious square root sign, 

I wish instead I were a nine

For nine could thwart this evil trick, 

with just some quick arithmetic

I know I’ll never see the sun, as 1.7321

Such is my reality, a sad irrationality

When hark! What is this I see, 

Another square root of a three

As quietly co-waltzing by, 

Together now we multiply

To form a number we prefer, 

Rejoicing as an integer

We break free from our mortal bonds

With the wave of magic wands

Our square root signs become unglued

Your love for me has been renewed 

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It's You That I Want To Be With

I always knew that love would come find me someday
but never did I know that it would be you who was headed my way
you caught me off guard and took me by surprise by unexpected source
but you simply captivated me, the same way you do when I look into your eyes

It's true that every good and perfect gift is from above
you were presented to me as a beautifully packaged gift full of humor, talent, intelligence, beauty and love
"it isn't finding the perfect person but learning to see an imperfect person perfectly"
we all have our flaws but when I view you through my eyes, perfection is all I see

From when you laugh to when you're upset fo your past, I still love the little things you do
especially hearing you laugh and seeing your nose wrinkle the same way mine does too
coming into this relationship has been hard at times but we've made it through
I know as long as we're on this journey together, there's nothing that we can't do.

Sometimes I wonder if what we have is too good to be true
too scared to get my heart broken and scared of the thought of losing you
but in the end, I trust in the author and perfecter of what I believe
because what we ask for in Him, we in return shall receive

"Where your treasure is, your heart will be also" is how the saying goes
I may not know what tomorrow may bring, for God is the only one who knows
the one thing I do know is that you are my one and only
a treasure in my heart that I want to devote my whole life to completely

I know I don't need to prove my feelings to know they're true
because what I've known in my past, doesn't come close to the experience I've shared with you
I've had the experience of being in relationships before
however, this is the first time I've been truly happy... I couldn't ask for anything more
it's an honor to know that I am yours, as you are mine
and I trust God that He'll bring us together in His beautiful time

For now, I'll be waiting patiently for that day when we'll be together
that precious moment in time when I'll say, "it's you that I want to be with forever"
God made everything beautiful, precious and new
just as beautiful and precious as the day will be, when I look into your eyes and say, "I Love You"

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Almost Gone

Im having a tough week. By far the worst week of my life.. again. I feel like crying but I cant. Im so frustrated most of the times. God knows how much I want to bang my head on the wall. Im emotionally unstable. I feel like there's so much going in my head. I want it to be over so bad. I wake up everyday looking forward to nothing. Im alive but Im barely breathing. Im hanging on the tread loose now. I feel like if someone provoke me, Im gonna snap ya know. I spend most of my teenager years being depressed and suicidal, never thought that once I enter my adult years I would still feel like that. God, this is sooo fucking depressing. I just wanna go away and never come back. 

Im halfway broken

Just a little gone

Almost to the brink

Almost fully drawn

Im just a little sad

Only slightly torn

I wish sometimes

That I was never born

I almost feel insane

Im not always lonely

There's few people who feels like me

Im not the only one

I was just about to make it

So close, but I fell short

It was almost meant to be

My second to last resort

Im midway through the battle

Im near the end of going away

Im almost completely certain

That I will never be okay

Written By: Ronnie Shay

P/S: Jason, dont tagged me in FB. 

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Crimson Tears

This was my very first poem that I wrote when I was 15. My ex- teacher saw my scars and asked me a lot of questions. I was send to counseling for 2 years. It sucks, Im not gonna lie. I was so pissed with her. But when I looked back, I kinda thankful for her because if not for her, I don't know if Im still alive now. I don't like thinking about my past because it hurts. My scars are permanent and its visible. Its a constant reminded of my life, until the day I die. Yes, I do take a pic of me cutting. Im in no way an attention seeker. If I could help someone who is a suicidal, I would go all out to help them, coz I know how hard it is. 

(P/S: All of this are about 7 years ago. Ive been clean for about 3 years plus, so no, Im not cutting now.)

Once again I take my blade,

And commit my bloody sin,

Completing crimson lines,

Against my flawless skin.

Tears seep from my eyes,

And fall down into my soul,

But I continue causing pain,

Until I eventually feel whole.

I lay on the floor bleeding,

Cradling my crimson arm,

Even though Ive done it before,

Im stunned at my act of harm.

Pain rocks through my body,

Crimson Tears ..

As I wash away the blood,

I feel no better then I did before,

Im still all cold and grey.

I look deep into the mirror,

And stares right through my eyes,

I can see beyond myself,

Pass my make-up disguise.

I can see the hurt and the pain,

And my frightening tears,

I can see my blood stained arm,

My own crimson tears.

I can see my pale reflection,

And the blackened eyes,

They all think Im fine right now,

But they cant see behind the lines.

And so I lay myself to sleep,

And wish the pain away,

I close my eyes and falls asleep,

While dreaming of a better days.

But that day never arrives,

Im always alone and filled with hate,

This is my destiny right here,

My life, My soul, My fate.

Written By: Ronnie Shay

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