Silence In My Hearts...

Silence In My Heart

After in the kitchen world, as if in prison not knowing what in the outside world… I realize that many things have change and not know Christmas is just around the next week. There many things happen and as usually problem come and goes by testing me how I wanna react by solving them.

I met someone and this person seems to be interesting. Someone who makes me thinks and can’t stop me thinking about it. Went Golden Mile and went to eat my cultural food (Thai that is) as our first date and we do like it. Told me that felt young and warm and said that I am rare to find. I felt blush and felt good. Felt the sense of security which I liked because prefer someone to take care me as I take care the person who loved me.

But that someone thought that it is difficult to catch me and keep me where got to impress me while me, in my heart all you got to do is be yourself and I enjoy by begin who you are.

Said, “I have caught the fish”

And I agree in the way of you too as well, silence in my heart.

Said, “I am thinking of how to make you like me?”

Where I laugh with no reply but again silence in my heart, I do like you.

Said, “I wonder who you are Jason.” And I replied, “I guess we got to carry on meeting than you will know ya…”

But I wonder also, who you are? and did I find the person I love too? But again silence in my heart, do you like me?

Said, “I have seen your picture many times when I am away”
Where I said, “Really!” as if like a light bulb but again silence in my heart that I don’t need a picture of you where your picture have been store in my right brain where all the long term memories are, when the first time I met you.

And lastly his favorite phase by sending text in the middle of the conversation, SMS, ‘You are so funny Jason. But what are you doing now?’ Where it made me wonder and think of you that you don’t wanna lose me and wanna keep the topic going because you did enjoy talking to me. And I am glad you ask that question because silences in my heart I do wanna talk to you too by trying my best to keep the conversation going too.


Sometime love does make you do funny behavior.

Sometime love does change your character in a way that I am direct but what you seen above are, I don’t dare to be direct in times.

Sometime love do give you lot’s of pop up question.

Last but not least, Sometime love does… Hmmm something personal that silence in my heart which I not gonna post here.

Haha…

But that the greatest gift for my 21st birthday which last October and greatest gift in advance for Christmas.

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Dishwasher Aunty

Is been busy, busy, busy so busy that my blog turn out to be dead but I can ensure you that this post have many interesting things that I recently involve into. I don’t remember when but one thing sure is I know I have worked 8 days in the restaurant and looking back I am amaze that I still survive. I met lot of interesting people who work behind the kitchen but in time I did make the head chef and another assistance chef angry because I just do things slow. Haha… Also kept on bringing the wrong ingredients. Ingredient that you would never heard before. Ingredients’ that you don’t normally find behind your kitchen. Kitchen equipment which is so new to me and different knife for different purpose and reason.

The Dishwasher Aunty
I am close to the aunty and she is very motherly lei. But in time I am more patient to the senior citizen where other teens rude to her. Scold and sometime disrespect a 50 plus old women. She bought me a notebook and a pen. So sweet of her, asking me to write down. Than she bought me a cap and bread. Haha… She advice me and sometime she is just funny. But in time she can be irritating and I believe that where the teens rude to her as a result. She said, “Chef you very handsome ah, now where my $5 dollar?” I was laughing as I making a chocolate cup…

Coezo (Head Chef)
In the morning I am kind of close to him. Please don’t think dirty. In the morning, I prepare the ingredient with him. He is another funny guy but joke, joke. When come to work he expects you to be fast and perfect and that where I am not good at. Been scold by him countless time already. At time I got so discourage that I wanna quit. But everyone, the kitchen staffs came and give me tip and support and Coezzo told me to believe in me and he believes in me. I suppose to quit but because of his motivation, it change my mind and wanna continue this line, curious what happening more behind the kitchen in the few more days. But chef is single and anyone interested in a 38 humorous, hardworking, Italian guy???

Ally(Assistance Chef)
In the evening I will be at her station, helping out. Such as dessert, side order (French Fries, Wedges) and Salad. In time, working at her station can be stressful. But I pity her cause she in charge two station which is a pasta station. But I envy her doing things so fast. I realize that who ever behind the station got to be fast. She taught me how to be fast. But fast make me kind of panic and nervous in time. But she is a friendly person and I am happy that finally she is off and is all me alone. It seems tomorrow is my exam and I hope Monday night do not have many salad order…

Last Friday, interview and Saturday worked. I have worked 9 days till now, today, Sunday. As if I been working 9 years and indeed the time slow and each days is a long, long days. But that 9days, I have gain huge amount of knowledge and experience in the cooking world. Among the other entire job, this job sure gives u a huge amount of knowledge. Is tough for a 21 year old boy to be in that kitchen but on the first place should a 21 year boy suppose to be there?

I have worked for 10 days and I told boss that I resign cause there no interest for me there. Sometime I kept on telling that I should be more to the IT side, Engineering or technician field. Not in the kitchen cooking but I do enjoy my job because of the staff in the kitchen. I do wanna stay there but I just simply got no interest. Jason might not have the interest of cooking but now he upgrades himself by a whole new knowledge in the kitchen world.

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500 Garlics Slice...

I still can remember till now which is the most difficult task to complete for a beginner like me and worst my cutting skill is bad but I make use of practicing. I hate to cut myself so I took my time cutting it and took about 2 hours. I left the house at 1030 thinking that I could reach by 30 minutes but ended up 15 minutes late. I say Chef Micah only. He the only one prepares the thing in the morning shift and I realize that ever since this restaurant open 3 weeks ago, he work non-stop till now. He seems a head chef. He not there, the restaurant won’t be able to function. He hates talking about religion and is difficult to understand his talking in time. When come to ingredient, OMFG is so difficult to get it plus the spice and herb is simply not easy to memorize. Olive oil which they used most of the time from cooking to preserve certain food. White wine and seafood which they like to mix together. But Chef Micah asks me to stop and have my lunch at 1330 which is spaghetti with tomato sauce. I realize something that a good chef don’t waste the food. Nothing go on waste even a vegetable such as stalk or carrot leftover or even a onion brown skin which they use it for Vegetable Stew for later on.

After a 3 hours break, is time to be back on business and I was working from 1630 to 2300. I was fucking dead tired but lucky there is red bull. Wanted to left 2200 but I tell chef Micah that is ok I will leave at 2300. I come to work at 11am and left at 11pm. I have a feeling there no off leh and I am just curious how the F&B world look like. I was a credit card programmer to biometric registration. Camp instructor to now chef assistance. It seems my resume will hit many field. Haha I am Libra what you expect… A Libra always go with a flow and everything is balance.

Kumar waited for me at Haji Karim and I so glad we have a coffee and a chat where he told his army experience where he met many funny people. Haha…

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Restaurant City

The interview is intense and I didn’t expect to be that intense where they really wanna know do I have what to take to becoming a assistance chef and opps I let go my occupation out and yes I am becoming a chef assistance soon. Yea, Aisha went with me and she sure laugh at me what I gone through lah. Also we kind of lost when we were there finding where the hell is that restaurant. My resume is all in engineering line and education. Is kind of weird that in the future me working in the F&B line out of no were. After the interview, went toward to Vivocity and Gowri also another one. Requested for gathering but did not come. Anyway, Aisha, Farah I and Sha were they happily chatting away at the Vivo Skypark. Wanted to see movie but ended up we went to Timezone and played some game. Fucking hell!!! I did not expect game like guitar heroes only played one song and $1.50 gone. Wtf! Played basketball game. Haha…

Went to Orchard to find a cab cause going to Ignatius house. It is near to Orchard area. It is so difficult to find a cab and the peak hours of pub/ club began where the girl dress in open style fashion start to roam the street. It took us a while and finally found a cab and off to Ignatius house. Reached there and everyone were sticking to the Xbox 360. Where I ended up chatting to a good friend of mine. Anyway I am glad Ignatius house got a guest room and that where I slept. Oh btw, is so sweet of them that they celebrate for Aisha 19th birthday with chocolate cake.

Soon left the house at 0745 and head home where now I blog it. And not long by 11am heading to work as if heading to school study about cooking. The first module will be preparation of ingredient.

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Style My Hair...

I just realise that the time went too fast, that fall on the last day of September. I woke up at 8am and used the computer to check out latest news in Yahoo which is pretty quite useful. Not long got to go off and meet my mum at Kallang. Thought of going to Golden Miles, Beach Road to eat Thai food which I have not eaten for a long time. Food such as Pathai and their cold ice chunks coffee which is just taste sweet and great. Thought I be there for a haircut but nope at Kallang. Went for a haircut and I have no idea what style am I gonna do for my hair. And I don’t really know how to talk to the hairdresser in a hair salon term. I only know slope which hell know I do not want. Slope is kind of for school. So I just told the hairdresser that anything would make me look good. So cut wash than trim and here my hair style:

Haha… Undercut and bla bla which I have no idea what he said. But I like my back of hairstyle. I felt irritated on one thing which is I got to style my hair when ever I got to go out. So paid about $30. Went to NTUC and buy some ration and head home by cab. $11 which suppose to cost $7 only due to the stupid jam at PIE to CTE.

Not long Miss Aisha came and I accompany her. We watch some animation and thanks to her I might fall in it too. Otomei, some wizard shit stuff. Later went to her cousin house to fix the computer while I called Veronica to find job and I sent her my resume so finger-cross hope she can get me one. Than we went to my place Pasar Malam and off to AMK Central. Went to some Comic shop and get her comic book. But is all in Japanese language or Chinese language. Went to DVD shop to see got any movie or not. Not long we head home and off to Sembawang to send her back which I and her talk pretty amazing subject. But I go Woodland meet a good friend of mine. I felt bad where waited like 30 min and hungry… Haha…

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